NEW BLOG!!!! lol

i have like 33 on here sooo i was like...yaaa need to make another.

in a song...

"if you're tossin and you're turnin and you just can't fall asleep,
I'll sing a song beside you
And if you ever forget how much you mean to me,
Everyday I will remind you"
:) -i love this-

missing....

I MISS YOU GUYS.......
i cant wait to get back.....
i want my bed.....
i want the food i love.....
i want to hang with my friends.....
i want to go swimming......
i want hugs.....
alot of wants...blah

Weightless by All Time Low

Mangage me i'm a mess
Turn a page, im a book
Half unread

Iwanna be laughed at
Laughed with,just because

I wanna feel weightless
And that should be enough

Well i'm suck in this fucking rut
Waiting on a second hand pick me up
And i'm over, getting older

If i could just find the time
Then i would never let another day go by
I'm over, getting old

Maybe it's not my weekend
but it's gonna be my year
And i'm so sick of watching the minutes pass as i go kno nowhere
And this is my reaction
To everything I fear
cause i've been going crazy I don't want to waste another minute here

Make believe that I impress
That every word
By design
Turns a head

I wanna feel reckless
I wanna live it up,just because

I wanna feel weightless
Cause that should be enough

If I could just find the time
Then I would never let another day go by
I'm over, getting old

Maybe it's not my weekend
but it's gonna be my year
And I'm so sick of watching while the minutes pass as I go nowhere
And this is my reaction
To everything I fear
Cause I've been going crazy I don't want to waste another minute here

This could be all that I've waitied for
(waited,I've waited for)
And this could be everything
I don't wanna dream anymore

Maybe it's not my weekend
But it's gonna be my year
And I've been going crazy
I'm stuck in here

Maybe it's not my weekend
But it's gonna be my year (it's gonna be my year)
And I'm so sick of watching while the minutes pass as i go nowhere(go nowhere)
And this is my reaction
To everything I fear (everything I fear)
Cause I've been going crazy I don't want to waste another minute here

i may be single on the outside....but im takin at heart

fuck relationships
i dont need one
yea i might want someone
to hold me
tell me everything is gonna be ok
love me for me
handle me at best or worse
but...i have friends for that
friends seem to stay longer than relationships
i love my friends, and always will
layla,becca,and timmy
love u three to death
u care bout me, and put up with my stupid ass
lol and u all have been with me through my moments of break down
different times but still
i cherish every moment with u guys
i hope i never loose either one of u
and even kevin my zombie psycho
even though i just kinda met u
u can make me laugh even when im soo pissed off
and wats funny is..u dont even kno it lol
i hope we grow closer...
i may be single on the outside...but im takin at heart
p.s. only negative.....i cant kiss any of u lol (well i dont think i can)

i can do this.....
just gotta keep tellin my self that
and believe it
gotta believe that i have pple who will catch me if i fall
im stronger than im acting...i kno it
i cant keep putting myself down
and wanting to hurt me
im not just that person
i mess up and make mistakes
thats ok.....i think
i have sooo much anger inside me
and sadness
but im gettin 2ware i dont see the difference
like its all turning into anger....
i just want it gone!!!
fuck....:(

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why do i seem like such an angry person?
i should be happy...and not worring so much
or bein scared....
thats all thats on the inside it seems
i dont like torchering myself or watever i do
last night i told my friends goodnight at like 3
then i cryed my eyes out for almost half an hour
and i dont kno why....
maybe it was frustration,stress....idk
i just want to be happy,get sleep,and enjoy life
and ill get there...just gotta get through my frustrating times
and thoughts
im not gonna be like this my whole life...and i dont wanna be
ill fight through my own battles,
climb up my rough times,
and settle in my happy moments
cherish everyone.....