WHY CANT I BE HAPPY!!!!!!!?????

FUCK!!!!!
FUCK,FUCKIN EVERYTHING!!!
IM BACK TO FUCKIN SQUARE ONE
DAMN IT.....
I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY
BUT NO THAT CANT FUCKIN HAPPEN
CAUSE EVERYTIME IT DOES
IT GETS FUCKIN RUINED
NOT JUST GUYS RUIN IT
ITS LIKE IM NOT MENT TO BE HAPPY
MAYBE IM FUCKIN DEPRESSED
GOD!!!! DAMN IT!!!!!!!!!!
FUCK EVERYTHING!!!!
I HOPE I GET OVER THIS STUPID SHIT!!!!
IM SICK OF FEELING LIKE THIS!!!!
I JUST WANT TO BE LOVED
AND FEEL LIKE SOMEBODY ACTUALLY CARES!!!
AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!
SHIT...
I FEEL LIKE IM GONNA GO BACK
TO HOW I DELT WITH MY PAIN BEFORE
BUT I KNO ITS NOT THE RIGHT WAY
UGH!!!!!