CANT GET ANY FREAKIN SLEEP!!!!!!!!!!!

every night i go through the same thing
so exhausted
so tired
hopin
but cant get to sleep
its like somethin makes me stay up
yea i text my friends
but it still takes me forever to get asleep
sometimes...i just wanna sleep all day
maybe i have nightmares
or maybe im scared to go to sleep
idk.....
i think i dont wanna go to sleep alone
and wants to kno when i wake up someone is next to me
i yawn like crazy
i might have a sleeping problem
idk....hahaha

my break through!!! lmao

wow
for once i really dont have much to say
its a break through!!
woo!
im at a loss of words....kinda lol
2day is not one of my expressing days
its my fun day...well hopefully
kinda feels like gettin payback
but idk on what
lol
and ive learned i do have some patience
or maybe i really do wanna wait as much as i thought i did
hehehe....so proud of myself
i do have a loving,patient,waiting,wantin a real relationship side!!!
yay!!! lol :D

wtf???!!!!

what the hell is wrong with me?
i feel like everything is
crashing
getting ruined
when really things are getting better
it doesnt make any since
why do i do this to myself?
i feel like i need to cry my eyes out
over what?
i have kno clue
maybe i need sleep?
idk...i think ill feel better 2morrow
maybe im frustrated cause
i have to visit my dad in july
i wanna see my friends
im bored
maybe.....

hate bein a girl sometimes......

i feel like im
overreacting
trying for nothing
thinking to much
i kinda feel like
im gettin worked up
just to get shut down
im scared im
gonna loose u
even just as a friend
i always feel like
i did somethin
or not enough
or said somethin stupid
really......
i hate being a girl sometimes

!!!???.....

im scared
im nervous
im worried
i care, maybe to much
i wonder alot
i wish some how i had all the answers
i wish i knew what to do
i wish i knew what not to do
what not to say
what to say
im curious bout u
maybe i need to stop?
idk....
i wish i knew how you felt
as much as u know how i do
its crazy that i can just keep writting about u
i guess its easier
u scare the crap outta me sometimes
but its ok i kno u dont mean to
or realize u do until i tell u
but im always here......
even if u dont want me 2

becca!!! xP

becca i loves you!!
when have been through alot
but we always stay friends
i love our
crazyness
silly moments
food crazz
long nights
monster obsession
our skippin days
talking bout hattin pple
talkin bout who gets on our nerves
i mss you soooo much
cant wait to see u
love your best bud :D

there are different me's......it seems

im this person that layla sees
all sides...the real me
im this person near becca
super hyper,crazy,real me
but have my annoying hattin moments with
main friends
pain in ass, crazy and silly, sarcastic
this person with timmy
another side of me, nervous, and silly
with hyper moments
im this person with pple i hate
mean and really sarcastic and threating
im this person near my dad
fake and wanting to punch him
im this person with my mom
talkitive and a part of me
on the inside im
a hurt,pained girl
been through alot
i have my own inside on things
im a nice person and mean at times
im truthful
but is that really me?
or is there more cause im always different
with different pple
i dont mean to but it kinda seems to be that way
atleast i think it does?
maybe those all are me just in different ways
idk?