lost..

sometimes i feel lost
like everythin i once new is gone
everyone i use to know i dont know anymore
my thoughts keep choking me
and replaying over and over in my head
my past wont leave it keeps haunting me
sometimes i just wanna party or do somethin stupid
just to forget my thoughts
even for a second i would love to
i feel like people hate me or dont care what happens
i try to please them
i try to help
i try to care
but they just push me away
or just take what they want
i keep waitin for happy times
when they come they always blow up in my face
i just want to feel
loved
cared for
wanted
happy
most of all not alone